Comment on Dealing with flashbacks after the death of your pet by Jo.

I lost my beautiful boy Brian last Feb. He had HCM but was doing so well. One day he came in from the catio, looked at me from across the living rm. I noticed his breathing was rapid, he then fell back and into a seizure. I remember shouting his name and rushing over to him. He went still and I started CPR. He seemed to come round but then didnt look like he could see. He was making an awful crying sound. He’d passed urine and faeces and then vomited twice. My other two cats witnessed this. I remember being on the phone to the vets for advice and at some point calling my husband to get home now. By the time I rushed upstairs to get dressed and grab his carrier my husband was home. We got him into the car and I screamed at my husband to carry on CPR. I ran thru a red light to get him to the hospital but it was too late. We knew the risks of blood clots were there but he was doing so well. There was no sign. I replay this in my head alot recently as I feel I have been triggered from helping a friend grieve their cat after an equally horrific passing. Im currently seeking counselling as it’s effecting me so much I’m not able to work at the moment. Thank you for this blog. It was very helpful. I hope someone can help me reorganise these memories and put them into the photo album where it cant continue to hurt me. I thgt I was coping well with thr grief so this recent triggering has really shaken me. I miss my baby Brian with all my heart. He was a special beautifully naughty boy. I wasnt ready to lose him at only 4 yrs old. I’d do anything to have him with me again.