Comment on Dealing with flashbacks after the death of your pet by K.

We lost two of our 4 legged children a year and a half ago to a house fire to this day it haunts me so badly that I find it hard to preform normal daily tasks. One of the dogs was my daughters emotional support animal to which he would go to the coast with her when she would ride her horse along the sand and ocean waves and Hudson would run along side her and jump between her and the horses neck and they would ride down the beach the three of them . Hudson and his younger sibling were Siberian huskies and more importantly they were my kids my grand dogs as I referred to them being I had no grandkids and was perfectly happy with them being my granddogs . They both were tragically taken from us in a house fire being no one was home . I normally would have been there but was covering a delivery route for one of my drivers so I put all the blame on myself because had I not of covered the route they would still be here today. My life before the accident was really good I would golf daily go to the gym interacting with people and really enjoying my life but now it’s all I can do to work to have a purpose to want to live . I have even contemplated taking my own life it’s been that hard on me and more so on my daughter. To add to all of this my ex wife has been diagnosed with stage four cervical cancer to which my fear is what’s my daughter going to do is she going to off the deep end and how can I help her when I myself am in such pain I feel like I have let my daughter down as a father. We prior to this we’re so very close we would sing our favorite song together in the car to where now we harldly speak to one another and have become so distant that I have no desire to want to go on with my life. I don’t have the answered I once had I don’t have the determination and the want to live as I use to I just can’t get over the loss of my two kids to the point I don’t care about anything anymore