Comment on Gone too soon: Coping with the loss of a young pet by Julia.

Thank you for sharing, I am hear because I am dreading needing to deal with the same thing soon, I’m only in my second year of high school and my golden retriever was just diagnosed with lymphoma, she’s only 4 years old and she’s my best friend and I love her more then anything. I have never been able to make very close friends in school and I’ve always had very bad mental health but none of that matted when I got Gracie, I used to tell myself that “Everything’s ok as long as Gracie’s ok” but now Gracie’s not ok and I truly don’t know what to do. My life revolved around her and I would always spend as much time as I could with her every day, she follows me around the house and scratches at the door of the room I’m in, we have truly always been joined at the hip. It had gotten to the point where I would call it our room or our anything because I found a way to incorporate her into every aspect of my life I possibly could. I took every possible precaution I could to avoid this type of thing from happening when she’s older, I spent money on the healthiest dog food I could find, added supplements of things I could find that would pervert cancer and I gave her plenty of exercise. Now that she has it so young I can’t help but still feel like I’ve failed. The vet said that the cancer had been brewing inside her for months and that it’s easy to miss. I feel like I failed. I failed her. I truly don’t know where to go from here. She was the one who always got me out of anxiety attacks and depression episodes. She’s spending her second night at the emergency vet right now, I’m writing this crying on her bed in my now empty feeling room. Just waiting for her her to come back and spend her next days, weeks or months with me before the inevitable happens and she leaves me for the last time. And the cherry on top is my uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer yesterday and dyed the day before she was diagnosed. A DAY after he was diagnosed. Yeah, this has not been my week… I feel I could have prepared myself if this were happening when she was 10 or 11 but it came out of nowhere and shes only 4. Does anyone who’s gone through something similar have any advice of how to move on and find what’s next. I just feel such a level of sadness that I’ve never felt before and I truly don’t know what to do.