Comment on Pet loss and self-forgiveness by Hazel Thomas-Welch.

I’m devastated to find myself here, and feel deeply for everyone else in this same situation 🙁
I failed to protect my beautiful special boy and I am in so much pain. I wish I could go back.
My wonderful beagle was 4. I hate saying ‘was’. I will never get used to it. He has always been a bugger on walks, I have lost him way more times than I care to admit, and every time I vowed I won’t make that mistake again. He has a habit of now and again suddenly running off into the undergrowth and disappear before I can get the lead back on. So obviously I should only walk him on lead. Always. But I keep giving the benefit of the doubt and let him run free, enjoying his freedom and wrestling with his little beagle brother, getting more confident with every walk that they don’t end up disappearing. Of course I should never have let him off the lead again. But I did. And today, he disappeared from the playing field we were in and didn’t come back. He ended up half a mile away and ran into the road. And now he’s gone and I am so sorry I was so stupid and irresponsible. I will forever be sorry. I love him so much, I hope I can forgive myself one day.
Sending love to everyone here.