Comment on Pet loss and self-forgiveness by Heartbroken.

I am heartbroken. My 17 year old cat died yesterday and I am wracked with guilt. He had been having seizures and was blind but was happy in every way. Was such a smart boy so would out, do his business then come in. I always check on him with ring cameras or go find him. Yesterday morning my husband and I had a coffee in bed. He let him out as he wanted out-usual routine. For some reason I didn’t keep checking-i think cause husband there I relaxed. He then got up, open blinds and he had drowned in the pool. It’s hard to explain but it’s high up and only gap was filled with a plant pot and due to his blindness if he touched something with his whiskers he would back off. We have no idea how he got there. Husband tired with might to revive him but sadly he had passed to rainbow bridge.
I can’t stop crying and the guilt that “I killed him” is killing me. Why didn’t I check, why didn’t we make sure there definitely wasn’t a way he could get near it. I will never forgive myself. Was my daughters cat who is away at uni and that was devastating telling be. We are that ashamed we haven’t told people he drowned and it’s killing me when people
Say it was just his time…it wouldn’t have been if I hadn’t of let him down!! I can’t even look out the back.