Comment on Pet loss and self-forgiveness by allison.
so sorry for everyone’s loss. I truly feel your words and know what your going through. Two nights ago my sweet boy was killed by a coyote. He was a little thing and truly felt like my child. A week earlier we had saw a coyote in our yard (this is highly unusual). Lived in this neighborhood for almost a decade and have never seen one before. I wrote it off as a fluke and just tried to keep a better eye out. Two nights ago it was really late and I let him out to pee. I didn’t stay outside with them like I ususally do. I went for a glass of water and when I walked back to open the door for him I heard him screaming. I ran screaming trying to get to him but the coyotes were so fast and by the time i got to the edge of the wood, they were gone and it was dead quiet. They had stole him. I have never felt this anguish and agony. I stood there screaming into the night. I felt like I wanted to die. I wanted to reach into my chest and rip my heart out. Maybe it’s not my “fault”, but it’s my mistake. One that can’t be fixed, I can’t apologize for, I cant correct it. The fact is, I should have been out there. I should have protected him. I should have known that an animal was stocking my dog this whole time. It’s been two days and I can’t even look at his picture. I hope he knows i’m sorry and I would do anything to take it back.