I don’t feel so alone now as the date of …

Comment on Life after euthanasia for bereaved pet carers by Thelna Rafferty.

I don’t feel so alone now as the date of my euthanized besty Gismo is next week. He was losing his sight and within a couple of weeks lost so much weight couldn’t eat but tried to, walked into things and finally was toppling over, he was 15 years and eight months. I was struggling with his illness and incontinence getting so annoyed and I will never forgive my behaviour which makes my loss even worse. He didn’t have a good end and his eyes were begging me to let him go. I laid on the floor with him the night before he crawled towards me and we both knew. At the vet after the sedative his eyes looked so bright as he looked at me and I held him saying goodbye as he drifted away. I cry off and on but I have lovely videos and pictures of him his lifetime friend Poppy misses him too. Will I ever stop crying when I think of my little maltese.